WEDNESDAYS WITH DR. JOE
Oct. 5, 2011
Everywhere, as I pen these lines, there is gold. To paraphrase Sound of Music, “The hills are alive with the gold of autumn.” Saturday, we battled rush-hour type traffic up into Clear Creek Canyon. Everyone, it seems, had concluded, It’s time to drive up into the mountains for our annual autumn fix. Yesterday, we took highway 285 south, battling traffic again. At Kenosha Pass, thousands of cars and even more thousands of camera-toting people of all ages, clogged the mountaintop. And on across the vast reaches of the South Park plain, the aspens lit up the sky.
Conifer Mountain is ablaze as well—splotches of gold, orange, yellow, and umber interspersed with lodgepole pine green. We keep looking at and photographing our equally beautiful long driveway. For well we know, it will not stay this way: in only days, the wind will strip the leaves from the aspens, and then we’ll know for sure that Old Man Winter’s on his way.
When teaching at Washington Adventist University, many were the Octobers when two professors and I would take a bus load of students north into New England (they’d get class credit in English, history, or religion), visit cultural sites, and “ride the colors down.” Those autumns are indelibly limned in the archival galleries of my mind.
Only once, in a short story, have I attempted to capture autumn’s essence. I titled it “October Song,” and included it in my book titled What’s So Good About Tough Times? (New York: WaterBrook/Random House, 2001).
I began my romance with twelve lines of poetry:
Oh to be in New England in autumn
When the leaves turn from green to gold;
Oh to be in New England in autumn
When I too am growing old.
The years, they are a-passing
Passing like the scarlet, brown, and umber leaves
Wearily letting go, and cascading down
From the soon to be naked trees.
Rolling up the rugged shore are waves of blue and gray;
Blue today in the serenity of Indian Summer,
Gray tomorrow in the hurricanes of late autumn
With autumn leaves the in-between.
For I too am nearing my October;
Remorselessly the sands of my hourglass
Sift down and down and down
Just like the leaves, just like the leaves.
Later in the story, I return to the theme of autumn with these prose lines, articulated by the story’s fictional protagonist, John A. Baldwin:
I have always loved autumn in New England, and so I try to meet my tryst with her every year. Two songs have deeply moved me since I was young. They are Johnny Mercer’s “Autumn Leaves” and Kurt Weill’s “September Song.” They move me still, even more than they did in those days gone by, perhaps because those words now mirror me, and my age.
For me, too, the days are “dwindling down to a precious few.” I, too, no longer have time for the “waiting game.” I, too, have reached my life’s September, and October is knocking at my door. And well I know how great a distance separates May from December.
But I don’t feel old. Like Tennyson’s immortal Ulysses, I am nowhere near ready to slow my wandering steps and wait until Death comes after me. Death is going to pant a little before he catches me. As long as I live and breathe, I shall create and attempt to make a difference. I shall grow, learn, and ever hone my craft. I shall stay young till that last breath. Just as the sea refuses to surrender, but assaults its beaches millennium after millennium, just so I refuse to surrender or slow down. Who knows, perhaps love may yet come to me, improbable as it may seem after so many fruitless years of searching for “the one woman.” As it was for my long-departed mother, there can be only one mate for me
So while I feel the shortness of time left to me more in autumn than in any other time of the year, it does not cause me to surrender, but rather to “seek, find, and not to yield.”
True I bravely say all this, but deep down I know every October finds me weaker than the one before, and that one of them will be my last. But I have determined, like Dylan Thomas’s persona, to “Rage, rage against the dying of the light” [from “Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night”].
So, wherever you may be when you read these lines, I urge you to climb into your car, and not stop until you find autumn.
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Next Wednesday, for all those readers who are afflicted like us with an incurable case of wanderlust, we shall continue with our tribute to Ken Burns, as we complete the great circle of national parks and national park lodges by loading up the car with Bob and Lucy Earp, and visit Rocky Mountain National Park, Arches, Canyonlands, Capital Reef, Bryce, Zion, North Rim of the Grand Canyon, South Rim, Death Valley, Sequoia, Kings Canyon, Yosemite, and Great Basin.
We hope you’ll tag along with us!